Monday, January 03, 2005
Grand masochistic rush via extreme procrastination
I had four major things to do this break, and here is it basically two days before collegiate life begins again and I haven't even started one. Strangely enough, I'm not panicking. This suggests to me that either 1) my panic mechanism is broken, probably from over use, or 2) I have deluded myself into thinking that two days is plenty of time [classic psychological defense].
Actually, two days would be plenty of time if I were still functioning at the pace I was at pre-break, but truth is, the combination of unstructured days and an anorexic to do list have spoilt all that. I am cognitively flabby. Binged to bursting on cable TV and 10 hours of sleep a night. It’ll take a week at least to get back into the wimpiest semblance of fighting form.
It was suggested to me recently that an optimum use of time is a warm up for fifteen minutes, on topic, in a separate ‘trash’ file before writing for an hour. An equally procrastonistic grad student says he’s been trying this lately and it’s been working for him. I’ll try just about anything once.
Actually, two days would be plenty of time if I were still functioning at the pace I was at pre-break, but truth is, the combination of unstructured days and an anorexic to do list have spoilt all that. I am cognitively flabby. Binged to bursting on cable TV and 10 hours of sleep a night. It’ll take a week at least to get back into the wimpiest semblance of fighting form.
It was suggested to me recently that an optimum use of time is a warm up for fifteen minutes, on topic, in a separate ‘trash’ file before writing for an hour. An equally procrastonistic grad student says he’s been trying this lately and it’s been working for him. I’ll try just about anything once.
# posted by vanessa from salt lake @ 1:26 PM 
